Name: Chloe Deutscher
Occupation: Business development manager
Why did you decide to try psychedelics?
I was curious after hearing about how psilocybin and LSD have helped so many people overcome trauma and lead a better life.
I was looking to heal my own trauma and work through my anxiety and depression, and also to connect with the highest version of myself to find the right path forward in my life.
How did you learn about psychedelics?
Through podcasts and friends that have explored psychedelic healing.
Which psychedelics did you use?
Psilocybin mushrooms, LSD, and MDMA.
Who guided you through your experience?
A trusted friend.
How did you source the drug?
From a friend.
How did you prepare for the experience?
I didn’t really prepare other than setting intentions and ensuring that I was in the right mindset going into the experience.
How would you describe your experience?
My LSD trip was a journey with many different levels to it.
It showed me how much beauty there is in the world and how much I was missing by not being present in my life. I honestly have never felt more happy and content and it brought out this childlike playfulness in me.
Every time I take LSD it shows me what I need to heal. I was able to recall traumatic experiences that I needed to heal that I had buried deep within me. My mind was able to find meaning in these experiences and also guide me toward what I needed to do to heal.
It was an incredibly positive and profound experience for me. I felt very connected to myself and the world around me.
How long did the effects last?
My experience with LSD lasted 8 hours.
What did you do for integration afterward?
After the experience I did talk therapy to discuss what happened during the trip. I spent a lot of time journaling to understand and remember what had happened.
How is your life different after using psychedelics?
My life has completely changed since discovering psychedelic therapy. I am more present and appreciate beauty and small moments far more than ever before. It has been the best thing for me in terms of overcoming anxiety, self-doubt, and other pain/traumas that have been holding me back in my life.
After my trip I felt so much happier and at peace. Since then I’ve felt more connected with myself, others, and the world around me. I am better able to handle my anxiety and have found purpose and meaning in some of the trauma that I’ve experienced.
If you could go back, what would you have done differently? Or what will you do differently next time?
In my first experience I found it hard to let go and trust the process. For future experiences I would like to stay more open-minded, lean into the uncomfortable parts, and trust the process.